Daily Reminder

I'm going through something I have never ever dealt with. Ever. In my life. It seems unbearable. I swear I have thought about giving up a shitload of time. But as Drake would say "When you think about giving up, remember why you held on for so long"

Gosh Drake, your words are so damn inspiring but so effin hard to actually do! Why is it when you are happy something bad happens right after it? Like damn fucking coconut head motherfucking shit, WHY! I was like so happy and life was just so perfect. Now what? Huh? I'm just suppose to bare with everything? What am I? A freaking teacher who needs to examine all her students fucking summer paper or some shit like that? Am I under probation for being a fucking lover to the guy I adore with all my freaking ventricular heart beat shit? Gosh, it's so hard. Why does it all have to end up in this way. All the freaking time. If I don't have problems with friends, I have problems with family. If I don't have problems with family I have problems with my lovelife. There's always this constant cycle of problems. Why the fuck is it like that? Happiness is so underrated in most people's life. It comes and stays like a fucking whore for one night and just leaves the next day. Usually that's my casee.

I was really really really really x100 happy with my babe. Like everyday I would literally smile for no reason no matter what I was doing. Then shit had to happened. We were torn apart despite our own will to be together. Sometimes weird forces of 'nature' just takes away what you got, you know. Some kind of 'destiny' stuff. I believe you can make your own destiny. Well, it's kinda hard to actually do that since I have parents that are tying a string on my neck at the moment and with my boyfriend freaking separated from me and god knows when I'll see him again. Everyday is just a sick reminder of what I could have been the happiest week of my life, but turns out to be the shittiest ever. Everyday I just hope it will all get better. Sooner or la

I miss you so much, baby. 

Please come back.

I miss being home.