To be honest.

I'm just tired of everything. Period. I'm tired of trying. I'm tired of not trying. I'm tired of people doing shit to me. I'm tired of getting shit for doing something good. I'm tired of giving a fuck when no one else seems to give a fuck about me. I'm tired of people saying shit they don't mean. I'm tired of trying to do something I don't wanna do. I'm tired of having to hold back on my addiction cause it rids the pain I'm experiencing. I'm tired of people leaving when I'm still not ready to let go. I'm tired of acting like I'm fine when I'm breaking into pieces deep down inside. I'm tired of hurting people when they don't deserve it. I'm tired of getting hurt when I don't deserve it. I'm tired of saying lies just so people don't feel sorry for me if I tell them the truth. I'm tired of studying. I'm tired of looking at unnecessary things. I'm tired of being in this place. I'm tired of the fact that I'm always tired. I'm tired of being so inconsolable to most people. I'm tired of repugnant stuff. I'm tired of being rejected. I'm tired from chasing what I want. I'm tired of talking to people when I just wanna be alone. I'm tired of the friends that act like they really care when they're actually just curious and want something to talk about. I'm tired of people who talks about me when they don't even know my fucking last name. I'm tired of judgemental assholes. I'm tired of hearing the sound of my alarm clock reminding me it's a day closer for me to become someone I don't wanna be. I'm tired of moving from place to place just because my parents say so. I'm tired of following orders. I'm tired of being unappreciated.

I'm tired of being ME.