A new life

I kinda feel sad for this blog. I only come to it whenever I feel like I have literally nothing better to do. I'm sorry blog. You know deep down inside you're the only bowl I can fill with my cereal-like thoughts. To be honest, you're probably my best friend. I can write anything I feel like whenever I'm here. Blegh, best friends or normal friends, they're all the same as long as they're nice, I guess? I don't even know what I'm saying anymore. Just blabbering like a madafakah.

Let's start with the good stuff first. I'm officially done with school. Or should I say unofficially since I didn't really graduate? However you guys wanna take it.. I left Abu Dhabi with a heart broken into pieces but I'm gluing it back together piece by piece. Kinda doing pretty good at it too. I'm in Malaysia now. Where I shall be stuck here for at least a year and a half more since I'm most probably doing A-levels that requires 1.5 years to be done. You're probably thinking " Why the heck is she gonna do something that she could have done in Abu Dhabi? " Well my readers (if I have any), I want to get my ass to the United Kingdom. I know, EVERYBODY told me going to the States is much better since it's, you know, America. But honestly, I don't know why I prefer going to cold, gloomy UK. Other than the sexy british accent, I really have no idea why I want to go there so badly.. Or do I? I'll just keep that to me, myself, and I. Some things are better left unsaid, eh mate? Currently waiting for Eid to be done so I can go visit the university I might be taking A-levels in. Probably going to live on my own since the uni is quite further from our house but who cares, I've got myself a scholarship! Though it ain't that much but it's better than nothing :) I am also almost done with my driving license courses. Tomorrow is my pre-test and I'm seriously shitting my pants about it. Apparently I need to pass it in order to do the real test. I am not a good manual driver, I admit it. So, Lord be with me. The teacher is a good teacher but I'd rather have someone less touchy-feely haha. I can't wait to get my own license but at the same time, I'm scared to my bones about it! I'm getting along well with everything here, for now. Let's just hope everything will stay the way it is. Though, I doubt so.

Now, with the bad stuff. Hm, well pretty much I have no freaking clue if I'm even still in a relationship or not. That's basically the pitch-point of all the bad stuff in my life at the moment. The fact that I haven't seen him for like 6 months? (or more) I'm not even sure anymore! How sucky is that? Well, nobody said love is all butterfly and rainbows. I'll just let this thing go in its natural way, really, cause I have no idea what I should do about it. My mind and heart won't agree at the same thing so might as well save myself a hellish war between them two uncoordinated organs. I'm living life as much as I can, though at some points I feel like breaking down into tiny molecules. Life is such a pain.